trying.

I'm trying to love what I do, but...
New Zealand, please come sooner....

tribute.

"this is the greatest, and best song in the world...
 ...TRIBUTE."

and- that's what I think of whenever I hear the word, "Tribute." :)  Thank you, Tenacious D.

Today, is a tribute. To my friends who have been through the same that I have been through.  To real love. To moving on. To so many things...

and I am so thankful, this Thanksgiving, that I have lived my life the way I have, and that I have Josh! :)

three.

three....

if you know me, and you think really, really hard, you'll understand why i wrote "three" this week.

when i think about it, i feel sick. still. 

... and then i deleted the rest of the post, because i couldn't do it...

poem.

I hope you enjoy this.

elderly.

gotta.

just. let. me. for. two. seconds. vent. . . then. i. will. move. on...

today: suuuuucked at work.

work: nope. can't even fill this one in on the internet.

new zealand: where i'm ready to live... come on working holiday visa!

josh: who i'm currently missing and wishing i could hug.

running: what i wish i could do to let off steam.

dark: outside. that's why i can't run!

feeling: like i failed at work for the last 2.5 years in my job.

moving: forward. by laughing off my feeling of failure.

because: i know it's not me who failed.

...my "laughing off my feelings" is simply related to this quote that I heard from a dear friend tonight.  i heard this quote and keep saying it to myself in my head, and keep laughing, and it's what will help me get through the rest of the week, and probably next week....  i hope you all enjoy it to the extent that i have:

"My mom only poops on Tuesdays."

think about that for a few minutes....

and now i will add a final note to this blog post, saying that, this quote is not at all about my own mother, but the mother of a dear friend.  

have a good night. that is all.