timing.

I'm getting married in a week and a half.  I have so much faith and confidence in Josh and I, I could not be more sure that this is the best decision for my life that I have ever made.  I am SO excited.

This morning, I watched my grandma go in an ambulance to the hospital.  I don't know what's going to happen, and I know she's 95, lived a good life, blah blah blah, but it's still sad.  I don't want to say much more on this.

My uncle was rushed to Missoula on Friday because he had a heart attack.  He was just moved to the ICU. I don't know what will happen to him either.

I'm feelings so many things.  This is just such weird timing.

Please keep these guys in your prayers.

Thank you.

update.

This is just a quick running update.

I just ran my second half-marathon on Sunday.  The course was beautiful and I think this was probably my favorite race I've done so far, just because it was so pretty, and really well organized!

I also got a really cute race shirt :)

I signed up for the Portland Marathon last night with a little processing and help from Josh encouraging me.  He is so good at that.  So... my next running adventure, I will be taking on the full 26.2 miles.  Yes, I'm very nervous, but I know I can do it!  I am really excited!

I will get on here soon to give a more thorough life update.  I was really fortunate this weekend to talk to two really good friends, Carrie and Becca, and realized even more that I can't wait to see everyone next month!!

I hope everyone had a great week so far!

asperger's.

I'm feeling... mixed.  

I don't know whether to be happy, or sad, or angry.

Someone, who I have been really mad at for a really long time, most likely has an illness that now makes it understandable for them to have been the way they have been to me and others for a very long time now.

I have been so angry at this person, that I have really limited how much time I have spent with them.  I have written really angry letters to them, and never sent them.  I have considered never having contact with them because they have hurt me so badly... but now I am regretting all of those things because I am understanding that person more than I ever have.

I do not want to say who this is.  I just wanted to generically say how I am experiencing finding this out.

When I talk about it with Josh or my mom, I am pretty factual about what I'm finding out and how I'm dealing with it, but it takes everything inside of me to not start crying or not to breakdown.

Everything that this person has done to hurt me...I am now understanding why they have done those things.

I wish I would have known this earlier, so I could understand how to best be around this person without becoming so angry.

I am reading a book that is helping me understand the life of this person, and what they have experienced, and why they have done the things they have done.  

It's just so odd to think that someone is a jerk for a long time, and then realize that you really shouldn't have been mad at them, because they have a form of Autism and they couldn't help being that way.  It is really making me think...