avoidance.

I have so much I want to write about but I can't. I should probably cancel my blog and just get a book to write in because I get so nervous about people reading my thoughts on here...

You know when you wanna tell someone something, but you can't because you suck at confrontation?  That's where I'm at.

I'm also at...

the place where...

When we leave for New Zealand in March, I don't want to take a phone with me, because I just want to be on an island with Josh, and just Josh.  I don't even want to take my laptop really at this point.  I want to go to another country and be completely unattached from what I've known and things and people that I'm familiar with, and just go to NZ and start over, meet new people, and be with Josh.

I feel like a lot of people that I use to talk to... well, we don't even talk anymore.  And on that note....

Sometimes I would like to get rid of Facebook, because it's impersonal.

To conclude this post, I will say that all the things written about above are definitely things that I have had on my mind, but tonight, I have something frustrating on my mind, but can't blog about it... not yet, and so in turn, these things above are coming out in order to avoid what's really going on in my head.

Sorry for the complaining, but you didn't have to keep reading :)

etiquette.

I think someone needs to write an article, or book, on "Gym Etiquette."

Some things that I have observed over the past week, should probably be included:

a.)  When everyone goes to Zumba ten to twenty minutes early to get a good spot, don't come halfway through the class and stand in the front so that those who were originally more responsible than you, have less space and get shoved out of the way.  COME EARLY, LADY!

b.) When you shower and you bring a towel, please use it.  Don't just walk around like you're the only one there, flaunting your business. We don't care to see it.

c.) Dressing rooms are available for nakedness, this kind of goes with letter b.

d.) Don't use the yoga mats with your socks off if you have foot fungus, warts, etc.  GROSS.

e.) Walk on the inside, run on the outside... should I put it on my shirt?

f.) If I come early to a class, and you didn't, you don't get your spot just because your friend is standing by me... again, come early!

... This is all I have tonight... but exhibit a. is driving me absolutely crazy... I'm seriously about to say something.  Anyone else have "Gym annoyance?"


OH! Additionally...  Richard Simmons should not be your icon for the style tips.

words.

I know I put videos on here a lot... they speak loudly to me sometimes.

Today was rough, emotionally. I had a crummy day.

I'm trying so hard to be positive, but it's really, really hard at the moment.

I'm feeling quite alone, emotionally, and I feel like no one understands, or would.

I feel "dropped." (Not by Josh, just for clarification.)

... inadequate... as a "good" daughter to my dad.... and other feelings... yuck.. feelings....

Video. Go.